Sunday

VIOLET'S FUNERAL – Saying Goodbye

 


VIOLET HYACINTH HAINES
                     (1894-1982)


Violet

Elsie
BettyAnne



September 1982
Day when it broke                                                                      
scrubbed its face roughly                                                                        
with grey Lunenburg County mist                                                                                        
                                                                                                                                             
My sister Annette and I enter the simple white clapboard church                                      
on the banks  of the Pleasant River
Begin our strange and  surreal walk
past pews of forgotten faces

The casket freshly clamped

Cramped side by side
on the narrow oak pew
tightly we clasp hands

I. Will. Not. Cry.

This is the last rose
from our Hebbville garden
her niece Ruby says. 
I picked and put it
in the casket beside her
I hope you don't mind.

Somewhere in the dark
it lies quiet. Wilted

For 38 years I breathed
in her strength
A child warmly cushioned
in the old rocking chair
Her neck soft and fragrant

The rest of them are bony, she whispers

Old-fashioned jasmine gently puffs its sweet
breath past her sitting room curtains
in those long lost summers

Six decades before she buried her own cholera children
At 45, brought her husband Arch, that good man, to Cemetery Hill

They never spoke a harsh word 
to each other, my mother says

Raised two other daughters
Then two sons

On this crisp autumn afternoon
my mind enters again the old
one-room school
Sits huddled close to
the small blazing boxstove
Watches as she
no longer my Nannie but 'Teacher'
opens to page 1 of my primer

\Here I am. My name is Nan.
I have a doll. I have a cat too.


She taught me the fragrance of love

Last night at the funeral parlor
at closing time I touched
her cold cheek

Rigid
No longer human

Tonight the airplane noses
its way up through the cloud
Dusk becomes glorious
Nose pressed to the window
I search for her footprints.

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